Always

Always…

Well, that’s an ambiguous word. Depends on how you perceive it. It can be a good one.

Like when you say, “Will you be my always?”. Oh, boy, you don’t know how happy I was at that time.. That was the happiest memory I had.

Now, where I was.. Oh! Always.. The word always that associate with me the most lately. Also the one that makes me feel like sh*t most of the time.

Always wrong…

Why? Why is it that I’m always wrong?

Whenever I do something, all I want is to make you happy. Make me happy. Make us happy. But, all I got was constant nagging.

Nagging,

nagging,

nagging,

nagging,

nagging,

nagging,

and?

Another nagging

Not even a grateful word. Only words of reprimanding.

Am I really that useless in your eyes? Can’t I buy the things I want with my own hard earned money? Why..? Even though all I want was to hear you say, “Oh honey.. Thank you.”

That’s what I always long for.. The words of gratitude for the things I bought with the intention of making you, me, us happy…

Is it really too much asking for something so simple like that?

Quotes Of The Day #322

“In the world of beauty and chaos, I found you..”

Love can make you feel everything and more,

From nothingness to something that is rather unexplainable.

Here are strands of thought about love that are divided into two, as follows,

Beauty:

Where love is yet to be revealed and if it has already, it gives you happiness beyond expectation. This kind of love is worth a lifetime, where mutual understanding is involved, and of course, never-ending efforts to keep each other warm, as well.

Chaos:

No matter how much effort you put into something, if it’s not meant to be, it will never be. However, sometimes you just want to make it happen despite the chances, despite the situations. Here are strands of thought about the dark side of love, the side no one wants to cross over, but what else can we do? Sometimes life is just that unfair. Nevertheless, there is always a positive takeaway from the hardest lessons, and our role as individuals is trying to find the silver lining in the most chaotic mess.

If Only

I know..

I did things that you can’t comprehend

We both have different minds

And yet we tried to make this work

Arguments are inevitable

I hate it the most when we started arguing

You are so damn stubborn

Clinging onto your logic

and never once you admit that she might be not wrong after all

You always said that I’m the one to blame

I’m the one that lied

I’m the one that fake

Then why?

Why are you still with me?

If only you could see into my brain

If only you could look into my heart

Then maybe you’ll finally see

and realize..

Ah.. So what she said was the truth after all

and apparently I’m not the Mr. Always Right