Fuck the idea that there is such thing as
That there exists some kind of
mysterious master plan,
That there is God who simply does not
give us anything we can not handle.
The pain did not make me
a better person.
It did not teach me
not to take anything for granted.
It did not teach me anything except
how to be afraid to love anyone.
I am far too young to be so goddamn
If I could go back in time
& give myself her childhood back,
– what was the point?